I wish I could explain the drastic change I have felt within myself recently because it’s been palpable. First it was buying a Bible a few months ago. Then it was reading it most every morning. Three weeks ago I attended my first Bible study. Now I’m working at forgiving someone I thought I hated. So unlike me. All I can say is, God works in mysterious ways.
I could never begin to list all the life lessons I’ve learned—and continue to learn—as a byproduct of recovery, but one is to be open to possibilities. None of the above was considered a year today; today, they’re among the first things I do everyday. It’s so unlike me.
Like potter’s clay, I am being molded, and I’m not even going to consider how or what I’ll turn out to be. All I know is that, day by day, changes for my betterment are happening. I can feel it, it feels good, and like any alcoholic or addict—whether in recovery or not—I want more of it.
So, whether I want to or not, I will keep on keeping on. Keep reading the Word. Keep going to Bible study. Keep working on forgiveness. I have nothing to lose except my self, which would probably be a good thing.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ~Jeremiah 29:11-13
